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Thursday, March 20, 2008

Today, i had the worst news in my life.
My dad's cancer cells have spread till his brain, 3-cm.
Brain + Lung cancer.
What's next? Hope?
I am beginning to give up hope too....When my mum tell me the news over the phone while i'm on my way home from work,i was stun. Still couldn't react to her. I am sad, but i just cannot cry,perhaps i had enough, all these months i have already depressed by my dad's illness. His cancer cells always grow smaller , than bigger again, keep on repeating and repeating. 1 year have passed, but nothing is getting better, instead, it's becoming worst.
How can i still cling onto Hope.
My life is really like a story, when i watch the TV programs showing their actors or actress got cancer, it's so fake, how can a cancer patient eat whatever they want ? Nobody knows how i feel, unless someone you loved have this experience before. That's the reason why i hated Jeff to smoke, hated his friends always smokes around us. If you smokers want to die earlier,please, leave us alone,i cannot tolerant people smoking around me, i cannot let any of my loved ones to fall sick anymore, no more please....
All i want now is seeing dad's smiles.
I want him to stay happy even though his illness is terrible already.


"You've always make me proud of you DAD, i love you.."

我爱你 froze in time on 3/20/2008 06:55:00 PM


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This is me
`I'M 19
`D.O.B : 09Nov90
`Graduated from BNSS
`Studying In NYP (2nd Yr)
`Diploma of Business Management(Retail)
`In a relationship

'I have lost someone who means a lot to me, from that day, I've been alone in my journey to future. Living in despair, the only reason to live is to fulfill my promises to him.

This Heart is dead ever since.*20.07.2008*

**..His Last Smile..**
> .さ。よ。な。ら
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1. Money!
2. BF
3. Family
4. Handphones
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My one and only
Nohara Shinnosuke
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