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Thursday, July 24, 2008

I'm seeking for death
Dad,
The memories of you and I, was here.....in my heart.
Today i have a really bad day.
I really have had enough.
I really tolerate enough.
My heart is broken ; my soul left me long time ago...
I am 100% anti-social - that's the main reason why this 18 years of mine, i have so little friends.
I once tried very hard to be sociable, but i failed.
Because of the experiences i had, i know how to see people's character.
Bad friends and good friends.
I am too good to differeciate this.
I lost trust.
I lost confidence.
I lost my heart.
And now,...i lose you.
I do envy people in polytechnic have big bunch of friends..how i wish i can be them, but i just can't.
People do not accept who i am, nor i do accept people for what they are.
This 18 years, i have been through all these hard times, but it's when i have your love.
I was being betrayed by my bestest friends.
I was being betrayed by my first boyfriend.
I was always the one being neglected in class.
Always the one being neglected .......
Do i really look invisable? Dad?
Why don't you just come and take me away with you.
Life in this World isn't that good.
Isn't good at all.
I hated my school.
I hated my life.
I hated my fate.
I hated everything.
Suicidal is the best choice i can make.
But i can't leave mum alone.
I can't bear to.
Dad, help me..
Come back..
..

我爱你 froze in time on 7/24/2008 06:32:00 PM


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This is me
`I'M 19
`D.O.B : 09Nov90
`Graduated from BNSS
`Studying In NYP (2nd Yr)
`Diploma of Business Management(Retail)
`In a relationship

'I have lost someone who means a lot to me, from that day, I've been alone in my journey to future. Living in despair, the only reason to live is to fulfill my promises to him.

This Heart is dead ever since.*20.07.2008*

**..His Last Smile..**
> .さ。よ。な。ら
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I just like it!
1. Money!
2. BF
3. Family
4. Handphones
5. Sports =/
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My one and only
Nohara Shinnosuke
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