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Thursday, September 4, 2008

48 of 49 days
Tomorrow will be dad's 49th day.
Hais....
I still can't believe he's gone...it's still so difficult to believe.
Every night i will look at his photos in my phone.
I wanted to cry so badly, but I'm worried that mum will see...
I dreamt of dad yesterday.
I hugged him so tightly..worrying that he will leave me again.
Why dad looked so healthy in my dream?
How i wish this dream is reality.
How i wish time can turn back.

I still remember there's once i sprained my left feet while I'm still working part-time at Bugis.
Every night, when i reached home, dad will take the chinese medicine and massage my feet for me because he know that i don't dare to go see the chinese doctor.
Dad will always wait for me to return home before he sleeps.
He sometimes will wait at my block's down stair for me to return home as he know that I'm scare of dark.
This all happened this year.
It's just within a year. I got his love ... and .. i also lost him.
Refer back to my blog, on march 2008
I said i missed my brother's birthday celebration due to work.
Actually that day my in-charge don't allow me to go home, but somehow i felt that, that might be the last time we have a birthday celebration of a whole family.
So i almost cried out when she don't allow me to go home, only after my colleague persuaded her, she then gave me the permission to go home. I was so delighted, but still i missed it and it indeed became the last birthday celebration we can celebrate together with dad.
Next week, dad's car will be returning to his boss.
As this car is useless to us without dad. Since the boss bought it for him, now he's gone, we shall return.
I'll miss this car so bad.
After all, it contained lots of memories.
If i can, i wished to buy this car from his boss... too bad i couldn't drive.
Dad use this car to fetch me to school every morning, from secondary 4 to 5. Too much memories.


03 September 2008
My boyfriend's 20th birthday.
I bought him a 21cm strawberry shortcake.
(It's bcos he's a glutton)











Hehee, now than i realise my phone can make this effect while taking photo.
So i took one with my dear.
At marina square, after dinner.
We went to paris at MS for dinner.
HAHA, paris again.
We went there last year during my birthday.
Actually we wanted to go swisshotel to eat, but after taking a look, i think their foods don't really look nice.




Nokia 6500 (black)
This is the birthday present i bought for my dear, though it's not a expensive present, but still, he love it very very much. haha. (Good~)






Happy birthday to you my dear!

我爱你 froze in time on 9/04/2008 08:01:00 PM


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This is me
`I'M 19
`D.O.B : 09Nov90
`Graduated from BNSS
`Studying In NYP (2nd Yr)
`Diploma of Business Management(Retail)
`In a relationship

'I have lost someone who means a lot to me, from that day, I've been alone in my journey to future. Living in despair, the only reason to live is to fulfill my promises to him.

This Heart is dead ever since.*20.07.2008*

**..His Last Smile..**
> .さ。よ。な。ら
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