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Thursday, June 18, 2009

Today's sky look like this.. the picture is quite blur because i am in the car. haa

 Our Marina IR ~ nice?
Today is 17.06.2009.
A year back, same date, we sent daddy to SGH for emergency.
Because he finally cannot bear the pain anymore.
In the cab, dad sit on my left, mom on right.
While we are going to reach SGH.
My tears fell.
I don't know why, I got a feeling that after this day, dad will never go home anymore.
Indeed, I predicted the correct thing.
Daddy saw me crying.
He held my left hand.
Like some kind of reassuring.
His hands were always so warm.
We reached SGH.
Waited 4 hours until Daddy is offically admitted in.
7 days later.
He was sent to Dover Park Hospice.
He slowly lost his eye sight.
Than one by one his teeth dropped off.
He was losing the battle.
Finally, he cannot see us.
Cannot hear us clearly.
Cannot recognize us.
He was so skinny.
Skin started to rot.
He could not speak well anymore.
He was sent to "V.I.P" room ( that room is for those dying paitents)
He couldn't see, hear, speak and feel.
One day I was called to rush to the hospice asap (I am in school doing project )
I reached there first, before my brothers.
Daddy's tired already.
He's closing up his eyes.
I am so afraid that he'll close his eyes forever.
I was alone with him.
I told him how much we loved him...please don't go.
He woke up suddenly, and never closed up his eyes anymore.
For the next days and night, he never sleep.
He seems like forcing himself to stay awake, because he heard me.
On 19.07.2008.
My mom, bro and me went to accompany him.
We are watching TV.
Talk to him awhile.
Help him clean up.
Before I leave the room, I told him
"Daddy, 明天再来看你"
I planted a kiss on his forehead.
On the same night,
the nurse called us.
Dad's condition is worsen, we had to prepare for the worse.
12.15am.
We received a call from the same nurse.
He passed away on 20.07.2008 12.15am.
......
Lung Cancer is scary right?
So smokers, stop smoking, you are not just killing yourselves
But in the same time, you're killing others who are around you when you're smoking.
My dad got lung cancer, not because he smokes.
My grandpa smoked for decades....




我爱你 froze in time on 6/18/2009 01:22:00 AM


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This is me
`I'M 19
`D.O.B : 09Nov90
`Graduated from BNSS
`Studying In NYP (2nd Yr)
`Diploma of Business Management(Retail)
`In a relationship

'I have lost someone who means a lot to me, from that day, I've been alone in my journey to future. Living in despair, the only reason to live is to fulfill my promises to him.

This Heart is dead ever since.*20.07.2008*

**..His Last Smile..**
> .さ。よ。な。ら
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I just like it!
1. Money!
2. BF
3. Family
4. Handphones
5. Sports =/
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My one and only
Nohara Shinnosuke
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