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Saturday, December 19, 2009

I hate myself being myself.
I hate the way I talk to people.
I hate myself for not controlling.
I,...know my heart has him, yet I always always made him sad.
I really find it difficult to communicate with people.
Can I prefer not to talk anymore?
Why he will never understand what I am talking about?
How come he has brain, so do i. But the things we think are totally different
I wish he could just stop thinking of buying all sort of weird gifts for me.
All I want is sincerity.
Not Money.
I know I have been telling you I want this or that,
it doesn't mean I want you to buy.
I want something we can always keep in our hearts.
I know I am a damn cruel person.
Sorry for doing that,
because that is the only way I can protect myself from harm.
You have a full and happy family.
I don't.
You have a bunch of good buddies.
I don't.
You can have what you want.
I can't.
You don't have to think of others before you do anything.
I can't.
You can't understand that my heart had died once.
It's difficult, really diffcult to stay alive again.
Unless.
Daddy comes back to me.
伤痛却又在考倒我
。。
真的雨过天晴了吗？

我爱你 froze in time on 12/19/2009 12:59:00 PM


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This is me
`I'M 19
`D.O.B : 09Nov90
`Graduated from BNSS
`Studying In NYP (2nd Yr)
`Diploma of Business Management(Retail)
`In a relationship

'I have lost someone who means a lot to me, from that day, I've been alone in my journey to future. Living in despair, the only reason to live is to fulfill my promises to him.

This Heart is dead ever since.*20.07.2008*

**..His Last Smile..**
> .さ。よ。な。ら
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I just like it!
1. Money!
2. BF
3. Family
4. Handphones
5. Sports =/
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The Band I'm In Love With
Mayday 五月天
My one and only
Nohara Shinnosuke
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